I didn't get good news from the vet about Thumper. He has to wear his cast for another 3 weeks and if that doesn't work there is nothing to do for him. So today I sewed.
I have been promising a sweet little hat for my friends granddaughter and finally got it finished. I used a combo of Barefoot Roses fabrics.
I think I want one for myself! I think I will make a big ol' market bag to match.
Perfect for gardening and yard selling!
xoxo
Diane
Yes I am in a funk. I have been in a funk for way to long but I just can't seem to come out of it. What is wrong with me????? I go to all of these inspiring, super talented blogging friends and I can almost feel it. I can almost feel my heart wanting to create again and then in a fleeting second it is gone.
Most of the time I feel like putting all of my fabric on ebay and just being rid of it in ONE auction! It is in the way and a huge mess that I am really tired of. I want my studio to be a bedroom! Seriously, if someone made me a good offer for all of my fabric today, I WOULD TAKE IT!
I started sewing 5 years ago after my daughters wreck. It was how I coped with it all or maybe how I didn't cope with it all. It was my therapy, I think!
Am I cured now? LOL! Maybe I don't need therapy anymore so maybe I don't need to sew anymore! I just can't figure it out. Maybe I am just thinking about it all too much.
I have always had a creative heart. "Real" jobs are so difficult for me. The thought of sitting at a desk or being inside all day is just not possible for me!
Put me outside in the garden or with horses and I am a happy camper.
Maybe I am not in a funk at all. Maybe I just need to move on to something else.
I know that God gave me this gift of matching fabrics and creating beautiful things with it but maybe my time for using that gift is over.
I used to look at my pretty fabrics in a totally different way. One look at a fabric and my mind would just go nuts with ideas. Now, hardly nothing, and I have to force myself to do it.
When I walk into my studio I don't have the same excitement.
I am not sad about it. I am just curious where my creativity went.
I think that I used to NEED to sew and now I don't.
I am at a good place now and I just don't need it. Could that be true?
Here I go thinking to much again!
Maybe it will come back. We will see.
This picture is something Dylan is probably going to kill me for when he grows up! It is one of my all time favorite pictures of him! What was I to do? I needed a model! 
Papa planted this clover for the wild deer that live around here. I never dreamed it would be this beautiful. You would have to be here to see the full beauty of this field of clover.
It is alive! Buzzing little bees are everywhere and butterflies too!
Papa also built this log arbor. I will have to plant more climbing roses to cover this big thing!
Pink and white, of course!
This climbing rose has given me ONE rose for the past 3 years. I don't know what I was doing or not doing but this year it is very happy and gave me lots more!
The knockouts are in full bloom!
Here's your Iris picture Mom!
This is wild pink snapdragon
Yummy peaches will be ready soon. That's if the deer don't get them first. We are hoping they will be so intoxicated by all of the clover that they won't notice the peach tree!
This is where you can find me most mornings
In my weeding chair.
It has been a cool spring so things are growing slow, everything but the weeds!
Thumper goes to the vet tomorrow to have his leg X-rayed again. Let's pray that the cast worked.
Goodbye for now
Diane
I could say she is not going to make it.
I could say that she has an addictive nature and she will be addicted to something all of her life.
I could say I don't believe you Andrea.
Most people don't believe in her. Most people don't believe a word she says.
But I do.
It is a lonesome road but
I keep believing and being hurt, and that's O.K.
Because I am a mom, I keep believing and waiting for a miracle.
I believe that she is going to kick this drug addiction.
I believe because I have to believe what I pray.
What do you say when your daughter tells you she can't raise her baby?
What do you say when your daughter's life goes off in directions that you could never imagine and you know these ways are going to hurt her and you know or you hope that she will regret?
What do you say when your daugther gets addicted to drugs?
What do you say when your daughter FINALLY realizes that these choices were wrong?
What do you say when your daughter has lost EVERYTHING and now realizes it?
What do you say when your daughter cries and says WHAT HAVE I DONE?
What do you say when you daughter is living a life of regrets. She is only 22 and has so many regrets because of drugs.
What do you say when your daughter is living for the first time in a long time without drugs and the reality of what she has done is almost to much for her to bear?
What do you say when she had life by the tail and drugs made her life spin out of control and now she is living with everything that she has done.
What do you do?
YOU FORGIVE
I am tired of the same music so I am going to let you pick my playlist. Just send a comment with your request and I will add it to my playlist! Please help me!
xoxo
Diane
I just made my way over to Nita's and it reminded me of something. I know that Nita is very weary. Her husband died a few months ago and now her father is gravely ill. She is heavily burdened and is feeling like why is all of this happening to me. It is a heavy cross to bear.
I hope that Nita knows that God is near.
I have felt that way. Reading her last post reminded me of how I felt a few months ago when my daughter broke her back. Right before that happened I was flat on my face broken by God. I had finally let go of the anger that I had been carrying for years. First , because of my daughters brain injury and then because I was having to raise my grandchild and I wasn't getting to be the grammy that I had always imagined. I WAS MAD! But then the isolation that I felt after being angry for so long, the isolation from God, was to much. I got very depressed and God broke me. I let God back into my heart and then my daugter's house caught on fire and she broke her back jumping out a window. I was devastated. How could you do this to me Lord? How could you do this? But now I see!
It was a test. Was I going to rely on him, God, or was I going to get MAD again. Well I was weary of being angry so I relied on God to get me through another heartbreaking ordeal and he did.
It wasn't easy and I am still reeling from too many tragedies in one lifetime but.........
The bible says to "Rejoice always" 1Thes 5:16
How do you rejoice in situations like Nita's or mine?
Maybe this is how........
I can remember one night at the hospital I was so tired and down. I was there alone. Everyone had gone home or gotten a room. I was still sleeping in the waiting room. I felt so alone. I talked to my mom on the phone and she said she would pray for me to find someone. Later , I just walked out to the elevator aimlessly, not knowing where I was going. The cafeteria came to mind so it was down. The elevator I was standing in front of was going up and I was to tired to go to the other elevator so I just push the button and decided I would go up and then down. It didn't matter.
Well, when we went up the door opened and this big cuddly looking guy was standing there. The kind of guy that reminds you of a big kid or your brother.......that kind of cuddly. He got on and he said "man nothing wears you out like sitting in a hospital." I agreed. He asked me, "was I ill". No, I said, my daughter is here and then I told him the story like I knew him. He then told me that he was a pastor at a nearby church! At that moment I just started crying. I cried and that cuddly guy let me cry and patted my back. I told him how meeting him was no coincidence. God had brought us together. I needed him. I needed for him to pray for me and my girl and there he was! I needed somebody to care and there he was! God knew I was running on empty.
We went to the cafeteria and we ate and prayed and laughed and got more goosebumps. I felt a new surge of energy and I knew everything was going to be o.k.
I was rejoicing.
Moral
We are never alone. God is always there! God sent that guy to me because he knew that I was weary. I still get goosebumps every time I think about that night.
xoxo
Diane
I just found this wonderful way to feed animals for free over at Kimberly's blog. All you do is click on the little purple paw print over there to your right and then sponsers will pay for animals to be fed. Remember to click it every day! If you would like to add this link to your blog go here.
All the animals say "THANK YOU"
I have to show this cute lil' tote off too!
I know I am shameless! LOL!
I added it to my Boutique!
xoxo
Diane
I am just loving Tanya Whelan's "Barefoot Roses" fabric line!
I made tons of pillows and cushions today! They can be purchased here.
Pretty cottagey pinks & blues that mix and match wonderfully!
Dots & Stripes too!
LOTS of pink roses!
See ya soon!
Diane
