Yes I am in a funk. I have been in a funk for way to long but I just can't seem to come out of it. What is wrong with me????? I go to all of these inspiring, super talented blogging friends and I can almost feel it. I can almost feel my heart wanting to create again and then in a fleeting second it is gone.
Most of the time I feel like putting all of my fabric on ebay and just being rid of it in ONE auction! It is in the way and a huge mess that I am really tired of. I want my studio to be a bedroom! Seriously, if someone made me a good offer for all of my fabric today, I WOULD TAKE IT!
I started sewing 5 years ago after my daughters wreck. It was how I coped with it all or maybe how I didn't cope with it all. It was my therapy, I think!
Am I cured now? LOL! Maybe I don't need therapy anymore so maybe I don't need to sew anymore! I just can't figure it out. Maybe I am just thinking about it all too much.
I have always had a creative heart. "Real" jobs are so difficult for me. The thought of sitting at a desk or being inside all day is just not possible for me!
Put me outside in the garden or with horses and I am a happy camper.
Maybe I am not in a funk at all. Maybe I just need to move on to something else.
I know that God gave me this gift of matching fabrics and creating beautiful things with it but maybe my time for using that gift is over.
I used to look at my pretty fabrics in a totally different way. One look at a fabric and my mind would just go nuts with ideas. Now, hardly nothing, and I have to force myself to do it.
When I walk into my studio I don't have the same excitement.
I am not sad about it. I am just curious where my creativity went.
I think that I used to NEED to sew and now I don't.
I am at a good place now and I just don't need it. Could that be true?
Here I go thinking to much again!
Maybe it will come back. We will see.
This picture is something Dylan is probably going to kill me for when he grows up! It is one of my all time favorite pictures of him! What was I to do? I needed a model!